Did I mention fear...again?

I am hoping, hoping, hoping and praying, praying, praying that my man gets offered "the job" tomorrow. It has been such a long interview process, and he is so in need and deserving of a positive change. Of course it would be an enormous shift and change for all of us. Emotions are running the gamut of fear, anticipated disappointment, joy, fear, trepidation, elation, fear, anger, gratitude, excitement and did i mention fear. I long to be the trusting, peaceful "i know the decision will be exactly what it needs to be for us" person but quite honestly I am more often in the "if he doesn't get this offer life is just not fair what are we going to do now?" mode.
Such is my ongoing struggle to let go and trust in the universe...


Everything will be ok in the end, if its not ok, its not the end.
Right?

HOPE

In the midst of winter, darkness,
helplessness, despair, devastation in Haiti
We reach.. We grasp.. We hold oh so closely to..
HOPE

Here I am again. without intimidation(for the moment),without expectation, without fear. because I need a creative outlet, because the blog world intrigues the hell out of me, because i need to show up (even if its just to myself) and because it's here that i've been inspired and touched and moved over and over again. and right now in this dark cold winter month...i am heavy and dry and this little blogspace is something for me to hold onto.

*photo by I blogger I love: d.schwedhelm